A Jorge Emilio Regidor Mattey

Posted in Uncategorized on July 15, 2009 by tiquiciadesterrada

Descansá en paz, abuelo, que aquí quedamos nosotros para seguir recordándote, cantándote, y queriéndote (25 de mayo, 1936 – 14 de julio, 2009).

 

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Siempre se habla de la curiosa muerte,

esa que a nosotros, los jóvenes,

solo nos encuentra a medias.

Siempre se le menciona, lejana

y sin poder querernos, sin poder tocarnos.

Pero mi abuelo la llevaba

enredada en las pestañas.

Se acostaba con ella en la cama,

le escribía poemas,

le tenía de todo, menos miedo.

 

Ella nunca fue una muerte embustera

hasta el día que decidió llevárselo

y nos dejó a todos sorprendidos,

buscándole el respirar de poeta

y el humor de viejo sabio.

 

A mí me dejó pensando.

La última vez que mis ojos lo vieron

le llegaban a las rodillas 

y lo veían gigantesco,

recitando poesía,

y se lo imaginaban eterno.

Eterno entre las rosas de su casa

contando chistes un poco pasados

pero disipando dudas a carcajadas.

Eterno en el diplomático poder de su mirada

y en la elegancia plena de sus guayaberas,

en la fragilidad de sus caderas

en el bigote, y en el regazo.

Se lo imaginaban eterno

en las espontánea ira de sus ojos

que ardían al recitar sus versos

como un Neruda personal y terco.

Se lo imaginaron eterno

hasta que no hubo tiempo

de imaginarse nada

y se cerraron las ventanas 

y se abrieron los libros

y se relegó el abuelo a aquel

rincón de la memoria donde viven los cuentos.

Desde tierras lejanas, mis ojos

lo vieron siempre, congelado y exigente

con una pluma en la mano

un verso en la lengua

y una guayabera blanca.

 

Hasta que una mañana de julio

tuvimos que darnos cuenta

de que el tiempo sigue pasando

y aquella muerte inofensiva

lo terminó devorando,

lo terminó convocando

a una eternidad verdadera.

 

Siempre se habla de la curiosa muerte

la misma que todos llevamos

cargada sobre los hombros

pero que hoy se llevó

al abuelo de nuestro pueblo

y nos dejó con las manos llenas

para edificar su imagen 

y los ojos, con lágrimas, pero abiertos

para seguir viéndolo eterno.

 

 

 

Me estoy acordando…

Posted in Uncategorized on June 28, 2009 by tiquiciadesterrada

Que el español se me va herrumbrando poco a poco, y que páginas de web como estas no tienen tildes, ni garabatos para las eñes.  Entonces, cuando digo cariño, años, sueños, y mañana, puede que no se me entienda.

Pero todavía ronda, escondido en las esquinas de mi cuarto, pidiéndome que lo desempolve y lo lleve a dar una vueltita por los recodos de esta cuidad y esta tierra.

Three Weeks in DC

Posted in Uncategorized on June 28, 2009 by tiquiciadesterrada

I have been in Washington for three weeks, and time is flying by.  Next week I will be done with one of my classes and I’ll be halfway done with my summer.  The streets here are crazy.  Everyday I see protest about Iran, my roommate got to attend an Obama conference, and I am going all over the city, for work, for fun, and for poetry.

Tomas, my friend from California, and I went to a workshop with Lorna Dee Cervantes today.  There were about 15 other people in the room, a room with beautiful murals on every wall on the sixth floor of the Institute for Policy Studies.  After discussing what Lorna Dee calls the “creative critical process” we had three free-writes –we couldn’t do more because we started late and ran out of time.  The free writes were prompted by phrases that the participants placed in a jar at the beginning of the session. Here’s what I came up with from the prompt “Death Themes:”

There were walls, and flowers,

stone and broken glass.  I

swept the dust and the litter

left behind.  Then sat to bring her

the week’s news.  She, like always,

listened silent, and I could feel

her head nod or shake

when the buses drove by.

My mother, even in life, carried

a tombstone that clung around her neck:

Let my arms reach out like tree limbs

and my feet dig deep like roots,

so that my children may climb

and speak with God at the top.

 

 

I also got to play soccer today– for almost three hours.  So I am exhausted and have monstrous blisters on the bottoms of my feet, asking me not to walk around.  So I think I will lay down and read for a while.

Lorna Dee Cervantes

Posted in Uncategorized on June 22, 2009 by tiquiciadesterrada

Instead of being productive all day Sunday, I slept until about 11 am.  The rest of the day turned out to be pretty eventful, though.

My friend Tomas and I met up with Francisco Aragon for a poetry reading at Busboys and Poets. Reb Livingston and Alice B. Fogel were the first two poets.  Sadly, we missed most of their poems since our bus had to go off its route on the way due to some protests. Over coffee and hummus, we got to listen to Lorna Dee Cervantes in a great venue.  She read a couple new poems –including some that she had composed as personalized orders for a fee– If you want a Lorna Dee Cervantes poem dedicated to you, she says, all you have to do is fill out a form and email it to her (there are discounts for poets).

Afterward Francisco introduced us to her, and we found out that she is holding a workshop next Saturday.  My friend Tomas and I are making plans to attend.  Francisco, Tomas, and I had dinner afterward, and realized that Francisco is friends with Tomas’ professor back in Monterrey Bay.

A good Sunday so far, but I have not talked to my dad, so I leave you to go do that. Then church at a chapel on campus.

Happy father’s day.

One week in Washington

Posted in Uncategorized on June 15, 2009 by tiquiciadesterrada

I wish that this post would tell of all the marvelous things I have seen.  But I have yet to see them.

I have spent the past week either at my internship, reading for class, or actually in class.  No complaining, though.

On the first day, we were expressly warned about what we put up on our blogs.  Apparently students have been “released” from their internships for releasing confidential information.  So I will leave my comments at this:  I am interning at the Hispanic College Fund and helping out with their scholarship program.  The people are nice, and I am excited to finish out the two months I will be with them.

 

On a different note, I would like to give a shout out to Linda Rodriguez.  She will be having a reading at the Raven Bookstore in Lawrence on June 25th at 7 p.m. and I have to tell you: be there. It will be riveting.  Linda is a prolific writer, recognized in Kansas City and around the country.  As the vice president of the Lation Writers Collective, she has helped me a lot.  If you can catch the reading, do so.  If not, make sure that you check out her new book Heart’s Migration.

Through Linda, I met up with Francisco Aragon, another Latino Writer who works for Letras Latinas at the University of Notre Dame.  I had a great time with Francisco.  We assisted church services and we then went on a tour of DC, which included “Poets and Busboys,” a cafe/bookstore that often has readings and open mics.  I hope to hit that up while I’m in town.

 

Shifting subjects again,  I have found Street Sense,  DC’s homeless publication, very interesting.  The paper contains stories, testimonies, and poems, among other things, and is sold by designated homeless vendors.  I met a girl in my institute that is interning for them, and they seem to be a noticeable feature in the city.

Also, last week while I was walking around in the morning before my internship, I saw my favorite person so far: He appeared to be homeless, and he was standing in a corner.  Around his neck hung a sign that said something like, Do you like poetry? I will be happy to recite one for donation.  At his feet sat a box labeled “Pick a Poem” and some of the names on the labels included Shakespeare, Keats, and Whitman.  I want to hunt him down and listen to him read something while I am in town.

More later.

Leaving Kansas

Posted in Uncategorized on June 7, 2009 by tiquiciadesterrada

I have never blogged in my life.  I think it’s because I don’t trust the internet –maybe just the people that frequent it– with my words and reflexions.  But I promised some people (who I did not meet over the internet) an opportunity to follow what I am doing this summer.  This blog might simply become a narrative of my stay in Washington.  It might fizzle out by next week because of my inconsistent efforts to update it often.  It might continue even after my DC stint.

 

But I don’t think I do it for love.  I think I just want it to be a tribute to the people who put me on this path to begin with.

 

I have been thinking about what to write on this thing, if I can use certain (cuss)words, who’s going to read it, what they are going to think, or if they expect me to reach some sort of cheesy lesson at the end of each entry.

 

But then I realized that, even though this is out there, in the treacherous internet, I do know most of the people who will read it.  And that at some point we have probably crossed paths in a way that has alerted them of my personality.  

 

Henceforth,

People that know me: expect not grandiose explanations of life’s meaning when you read this, simply understand that I write this for you because I can’t call you on the phone everyday or write very often.

 

People who do not: good luck.  And if that is the case, I would skip this first entry because it will get kind of clickey from here.

 

I am sitting at KCI waiting for my plane to DC to start boarding.  Airports are funny places.  Everyone is walking around, pointing all their fingers downward and moving their hands up and down; they installed those jet engine hand driers with the 12-second-dry guarantee and, apparently, they are a big hit.  Time to board.

 

The plane is tiny. My arm and the lady to my left’s have become quite acquainted with each other.  

 

My mom dropped me off at the airport.  Me encanto observarla en el carro, verla leer los rotulos, para ella confusos, de las autopistas estaunidenses.  Me va a hacer mucha falta.  Despues de Dios, ella es definitivamente la primera a la que tengo que agradecerle el hecho de que este sentado en este avion.

 

Te quiero, Ma. Como la tierra al sol.

 

 

If you speak no Spanish, I was just thanking my mother for being the most awesome one in the world.  And now I want to thank some more people.  You can skip this, or look for your name, or something, or nothing.  I don’t care.

 

Last night, as a fare-well to Lawrence, I went to a Fourth of July (look’em up; they’re the shit) show with some of the people I care most about in this country.  I think they are the most exciting thing about being in Lawrence next fall.  Schools don’t make people; people make people.  Thank you Calvin, Mike, G, Nate, Caitlin, Ryan.

 

The JCCC crew, very important. Kathryn Byrne, Gwen and all the peeps at the Writing Center.  Dr. Stockton and Dr. Xidis, you guys know.  Dr. Gorell for all the knowledge. Carmaletta Williams, you are so real; you have made me feel like there is hope for this world. Keep holdin it down at ODEI.  Thank you.


And I’ll close out thanking people with all the friends who know I keep in my mind.

 

 

Thanking people feels inappropriate.  Because, with me, it’s not like I won some hip award or something.  I simply must give people props for being instrumental in my life.

 

Anyway, I will be landing in DC soon, then taking a train, then a bus, then walking some blocks, all the while carrying all my luggage.  I’m going to look like such a tourist.  But I am excited.

 

More tomorrow. Perhaps.